Portal of Enigmatic Shapes

December 29, 2023

The room was dimly lit, the only source of illumination being the soft glow of the street lights filtering through the half-closed blinds. A man sat at a cluttered desk, his fingers dancing with a pen over a blank page. At first, the shapes that came from his fingers were geometrical doodles, spirals that began anticlockwise but ended up snaking clockwise. Now a triangle that grew into a star. The shapes flowed from his pen as if the pen itself inscribed the signs. Still, the scribble continued, now over half the page from the center was filled with shapes and lines.

The stars on the page weren’t even noticeable, only the light blue of the sky ran down the page making a huge teardrop. As he picked up the page with the letterhead, he noticed that the stars had grown a little brighter. He held the piece of paper up to face the window, as he did light streamed through the stars as if they were holes. He touched the spot where a star was, and he knew that it wasn’t a hole. The star, in fact, seemed to radiate more heat. Leaving it on the desk, he picks up the phone and calls Tony. No answer.

He sat down and began to scribble on a piece of paper he found on the shelf. It’s not as if he had a message for anyone in particular. In fact, he didn’t even know how he came to be in this room. The scribbles continued, forming a maze of lines and shapes that seemed to have a life of their own. The room, now filled with a quiet tension, held the secrets of the man at the desk and the enigmatic symbols he was creating. Tony walked in, the door creaking slightly as it opened.

“What’s going on, Joe?” Tony asked, eyeing the chaotic patterns on the paper.

“I don’t know, Tony. It just started. The shapes, the symbols. They won’t stop,” Joe replied, his eyes fixed on the mesmerizing dance of ink on paper.

Tony took a moment to study the page, then looked around the room. “It’s like you’ve opened a portal to another world in here.”

“Yeah, a world of shapes and lines,” Joe mumbled, almost to himself.

The two men sat in silence, watching as the scribbles unfolded. Joe pulled the blinds open. The stars outside the window seemed to pulse with an otherworldly energy, casting an ethereal glow on the room. The air was charged with mystery, and the wall between reality and imagination blurred.

As the night deepened, Joe continued to sketch, and Tony remained, captivated by the unfolding spectacle. The shapes on the paper seemed to tell a story, a story that transcended the boundaries of ordinary existence. The room became a sanctuary of creativity, a realm where the ordinary transformed into the extraordinary.

And so, in the dimly lit room, surrounded by the enigmatic symbols and the soft hum of the city outside, Joe and Tony witnessed the birth of something beyond comprehension, that defied the constraints of the mundane.


Gypsy Bob and the Aussie Dollar Note

December 26, 2023

I found an old Aussie dollar in the drawer. Reminds me of Gypsy Bob and me back at Bob Gould‘s Third World Book Shop on Goulburn Street in Sydney. For a while I was attending Bob Gould’s Socialist Resistance group meetings. Later I met some others who had more of an anarchist bent and I left Resistance. My new friends and I, put out the first and only Yippie paper in Australia, ‘Plague.’ Gypsy Bob was nothing like Bob Gould. Gypsy was a wild character with a silver and purple dyed beard and long hair with glitter. He sported a patchwork coat & trousers crafted from assorted materials. I, on the other hand, dressed plainly, but our ideas clicked.

Gould had Abby Hoffman‘s ‘Steal This Book’ and Jerry Rubin‘s ‘Do It!’ for sale.

As we aimed to stroll out with both books, Gould halted us, asking, “Where do you think you’re going without paying for those books?” Gypsy quipped, “Hey, it says ‘Steal This Book,’ and Rubin’s says ‘Do It!’ so we’re doing it!” Gould retorted, “No way!” I clutched the books, and Gypsy brandished a dollar note, declaring, “Hey, Mr. Socialist, watch me burn this dollar if you don’t step aside!” Mesmerized, I observed as Gould protested, “Don’t burn the money, you hippie!” Igniting his lighter, Gypsy slowly brought the flame to the lifted dollar note. Gould erupted in a frenzy of profanities as we made our escape, books in hand.

I wish I still had ‘Do It’ and ‘Steal This Book.’

Months later, I revisited the shop, the sole source of alternative news and views in Sydney. Gould treated me warmly, asking, “Why’d you get mixed up with those crazy mystic acid heads? You were OK in Resistance.” I replied honestly, “Because it’s more fun than Resistance.”

Pretty dumb, huh? I was just 19.


My Mother’s Anatolian Icon

December 19, 2023

On a quiet Sunday, December 10, 2023, my mother left this world. A cherished relic, once belonging to my grandmother, had become my mother’s dearest possession. It rested faithfully by her bedside, accompanied by the constant glow of an olive oil lamp, flickering day and night.

In her room, when I visited, she would present the icon for me to kiss and cross myself.

This icon held profound significance for my family, hailing from Pontic Greeks who endured the harrowing attempted genocide in the 1920s. Known as the Great Disaster among Greeks, my grandparents faced unspeakable challenges during their escape, carrying with them this sacred icon. In those trying times, my grandmother, a beacon of strength, invoked the Mother of God, Theotoko, for solace and sustenance.

Picture a group of weary children and adults, huddled around a fire by the roadside, hungry and desperate. My grandmother, with unwavering faith, would bring out the cherished icon. She urged the children to kiss it and make the sign of the cross. Then, with profound devotion, she raised the icon to the heavens, repeating the ritual three times—for the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost—beseeching Theotoko for divine intervention. Each time before she raised it to the star filled sky, she brought it back to her heart.

Amidst the crackling of the fire, my grandmother, holding the icon aloft, turned to share its grace with the circle of souls around her. She dipped the icon into a vessel of water three times, each motion filled with fervent prayer. As the icon emerged for the last time, she declared that the Mother of God had provided. The once-hungry children filled their cups, drank deeply, and found their hunger miraculously satisfied.

This faded icon, a witness to survival and faith, now holds a special place in my heart, connecting me to a resilient past and to my mother and her mother and to the Mother of God.

I’ve included this story in the book I’m writing which I am dedicating to my mother.

Below is a two faced icon also given to me by my mother. I thought I’d include it here. Found out through Twitter that it is a Byzantine Fan used in Liturgy and is called a ripidion, or hexapterygon.


A Special Day in Bethlehem, Palestine

December 4, 2023

Just remembered a special day in Bethlehem, Palestine back in 2000. I visited the place believed to be where Jesus was born. Afterwards, I wandered into a shop to check out Palestinian belts. The owner, a Muslim, and I started talking. He was puzzled by how Christians believe in the Holy Trinity and that God was crucified. We chatted about our different beliefs.

The spot where people throughout history believe is where Jesus was born

While we were talking, a customer came in, and the owner had to leave in a hurry. Surprisingly, he asked me to watch over the shop while he was gone, even though I didn’t speak Arabic, just Greek and English. I was a bit worried about communication, but he assured me it would be okay and that he’d be back soon.

For about an hour, I had the entire shop to myself. People came in, looked around, but nobody talked to me. When the owner returned, he made me tea, and we continued our conversation about religion. It struck me that even though I was a stranger and not of his faith, he trusted me to take care of his shop and not take anything.

I realized I could have easily taken things and walked away without anyone noticing. But something special had happened between us during our conversation. We connected in a way that made him trust me. As a parting gift the shop owner gave me a Palestinian belt. It was an incredible experience—a unique day in Palestine.

A Palestinian belt with some badges pinned on it. The embroidery patterns and motifs of Palestinian belts convey specific meanings related to the belts’ origin – the village, family, or marital status of the potential wearer. The intricate designs and variations in the Palestinian belt reflect the rich diversity and cultural heritage of the Palestinian people.